My grandpa (on moms side) died today at 12:00 AM this morning. I feel so conflicted becuase its only 2 days before my b-day. Nov 16, and the rest of my moms family wanted to have his wake on my b-day. She managed to get them to do it one day after.
I don't know how to feel...sad becuase of his death
happy becuase im turing 18
sad becuase hell never get to see me graduate
happy becuase hes at peace
sad becuase my grandmas now alone
Or some kind of sick and twisted delusion of happy and sad?
Also im dissapointed in myself for thinking about presents I had wanted. I had asked my brothers to give me that new Kingdom hearts game for the DS (<3 KH) but im afraid to ask them or keep asking them for it becuase of this. It makes me look so heartless (pun not intended orginaly)
I don't know what to do...I don't think I can be FULLY happy on my b-day as I would have been if this had not happened
Ill post a pic of him later becuase can't find one atm....
Wito
Born: Aug 6, 1930
Died: Nov 14, 2009
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