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Im sooo scared..What if I don't get a date to the Winter Formal. My dumb a** dumped my boyfriend the other day. But for a good reason.I won't get into deets or i'll start crying. Anyway, I really want to go. And i'm not asking a someone because that's a boy's job not a girl's. And besides, it'll make me seem like im desperate..EVEN THOUGH I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!! Im sooo scared. Someone better ask me. I like this one dude but he seems like..idk..like focused on like other things. I don't think he'd actually care if I did ask him. he''d probably say "yeah"..Well I dont want him to just say "Yeah" I want like a "Great!! Sure Why Not..You know I've liked you ever since we first met. Your eyes twinkled in light and that just made my heart melt but you mended it before it could drop to the ground..just as an Angel should.." Or something like that. That'd be soo sweet. My friend Jess's boyfriend Stephano (he's italian) gave her a gorgeous heart necklace and asked her. She was so happy and I was so happy for her. See Italians really do know how to romance and make a girl feel special. UNLIKE SOME GUYS! Im sooo scared..I don't wanna stay home alone.. All my friends- well most of my friends will be there. Well if I dont get a date this week....Im soo turning EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok im not doing that but this whole weekend I've been Love Sick. I want a bf again. And I want a real one. I dont want some guy I thought was cute. I want a guy that likes me and i like him back...but who? EVERYONE IS TAKEN!! and its seems as though no guy is compatible with me...Im thinking about the guy down the street again...He's like NEVER outside though...I just need to get to know him but how..Im too shy to just go knock on there door and ask "Umm is Brahim there" HAHAH i sound like a stalker. See, he's my friend, Soledad's, brother and I bet he doesnt know my name but I know his. I wonder how old he is. He looks about my age. I should ask..Maybe I shouldn't...IDK But if he happens to be skateboarding outside again then DAMNIT I will be out there too. Wish me luck.


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