well yeah...
it's been so long since i have written here..
well to be honest...things didn't go great this past few months..starting from December..
now, it's still kind a awkward seeing THEM...but still i think i'm doing great and getting use to it..
the chaotic part of a love story i was once dreaming has now ended..
well yeah it's chaotic..very much chaotic..maybe LOVE just doesn't go with me..
whenever i like someone..we never ended to be together forever, not like the fairy tales..well of course..there's no such thing as a fairy tale love story..and i really hate it..THAT SUCKS..!!
well that's because we are in a real world..where fantasies didn't happen >silly me, of course that doesn't happen, that's why its called real world..HELLO?!?!<
anyway i didn't want to tell that tale again and ended up crying in front of my computer..
so i'll just go with the details..
at first we did great..
then we are getting better >even though people doesn't notice it<
then people started thinking we are not match for each other >they said he would just hurt me, and they are right<
then by the month before December..i notice we are not progressing..
until by middle of DECEMBER..he said it just didn't work out..
worst part is, i thought he is still moving on..and guess what?? HE ALREADY LIKE SOMEONE...
OH MY GODS!! and i was really devastated and bitter after hearing that story from someone..
until he already confirmed it >of course, i didn't tell him i already know it!<
and then i started to ignore him..he keep asking if i'm alright >during those time, i just wanna tell him.. OF COURSE NOT, WHAT ARE YOU AN IDIOT!!<
and that is what my heart wanna yell..and yes..i didn't tell it..i'm too stupid to not show off what i feel..
and after that holiday break..i didn't went back to school for a week coz' i was sick..
and truthfully, i'm still not very well >not because of the sickness<
now, i don't know..yes, better..but not at its best..
of course i'll go on..i still have friend who might notice..but i have to think that nothing happen..and just a mist have confused my memories..
i'll just make reading novels as an outlet of everything..
and yes i have to be strong...i'll be a HERO someday you know...when i have my quest..i will succeed..and make my father HERMES proud of me..
even though gods can't have favorites..i would be the one..
sweatdrop >well yeah..the last part is inspired from the book i am reading XD...so yeah..it's reall great to be a demigod!!<
 -_-HaNa-Ni-aRaSHi-_- · Fri Feb 11, 2011 @ 05:25am · 0 Comments |
