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ok.... to all who know my passion for music...
yesterday i was thinking about never singing and despising music for the rest of my pitiful life.... i have major doubt in myself now... i barley want to sing any more.... i really hate that i dont want to sing but my chorus teacher is a real b*****d for putting me and my friends down like he says he wont! this is really starting to make me soooo mad tht i have had drams of me killing him! ... well... that or him dieing right in front of me.... oh! and its not just him that hates me! in my high school all the teachers r like hating everyone just cause they have to go to work every day! so they actually TRY to make me n my friends life miserable!! if it was up to me! OH! my school would so b off the face of the earth! >< and then today he just flat out lies to us! at least my friend got it all recorded! GAH! i really have doubts..... i lo- well.... i used to love to sing... but now... i just feel like something is missing and i cant replace it.... it really sucks.... n i really dont see any purpose to live anymore.... my one true goal n dream was all to sing! n now.... all those hopes are gone.... i just hate what the hell he has said to us.... i had hope this morning cause it was a brand new day.... but after his F***ING lecture.... i have no hope anymore.... i want that small amount of hope back.... but knowing him... i wont have any hope by the end of this week.... now.... seeing as if i go on ill probably cry n no ty to that.... so i guess ill leave off here... if anyone wants to know more just ask by commenting/calling/or when u die...