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At least I'm being honerst with myself.
Song of the Day...Buzzin', by Shwayze
Status: kind of down
Song of the Day...Buzzin', by Shwayze
Status: kind of down
Today was rather gloomy. It's not that I'm not glad to be going to school or anything. It's just that certain people and events led me to, as it says above, feel kind of down. =(
I went down to the computer room in the library first period to print my English homework and my SAT Biology E/M admission ticket, but the computers were closed. Apparently, they were having trouble logging into all of the computers. So, I went down to the cafeteria just like I usually and I met Hera there. And I ranted to her about my printing issue. She said that I could print it in any of the other computer rooms if possible, so we went to her locker and then roamed the school until we checked all of the computer rooms. Unfortunately, as it was, none of the computers in the school were working at the time.
My puppy went to class and I met Karin in the halls. First things first. So, I told her about the class that she missed on Saturday. If only she would pick up her cell! I should ask for her home number later. Karin was having trouble registering for the SATIIs, so we went down to the Guidance Office to see if we could get her a mailing form. Her parents don't think that the SATIIs are very important, so they're not really helping her out here. And they don't have credit cards, so she couldn't do it online.
After that we went up to the second floor, so Karin could ask Amy (Colorado) if she could ask Mr. Lee about getting her a form. And after that, we went down to the cafeteria where I finally met Amy and Judy and Christie. Christie got an adorable haircut!!! As did quite a few other people I saw throughout the day. =)
We spent the rest of the period just talking. Then me and Karin headed out of the cafeteria and went to our classes.
Writing Seminar was up next. It was okay. We finally handed in our Personal Essays. I hope mine didn't suck too bad. To be honest, I don't think the conclusion was all that true. I mean, I have become less shy, I suppose. But sometimes I wish I were shy again! I mean...no I don't. But sometimes I just want people to leave me alone.
Math was alright, I suppose. We got our new seats and I was sitting next to Jenny and right behind Amy, but then (i think he might have seen amy turning around and writing notes on my binder) he switched my seat with Kevin. I'm not really that pissed off that I'm sitting somewhere else, but somehow it just ticks me off that he moved me, but he didn't move other people who were sitting with people that they talk too much with. And not to mention, I'm not particularly talkative anyway. Even when I sit next to people that I talk to, I still don't overdo it really. On the plus side though, I am sitting by Corrine. Actually, Sera was sitting right in front of her, but Mr. Eng switched her with Yamato. And, behind me sits Victor, who seems to still enjoy sleeping in class. This may sound like a very minor complaint, but because I got my seat switched, it kinds of gives me the impression that Mr. Eng thinks that I'm one of those kids that have trouble concentrating.
After Math was good old lunch. Lunch was alright today. The computers were thankfully usable, so I printed out my English homework and my admission ticket. After that, I went to the reference room hoping to find everyone there as usual, but no one was there. Sometimes it almost seems like it's my fault that my friends disperse. I mean, everytime I start to hang out elsewhere or stop showing up (i kind of secluded myself for a while during lunch the week before break because i was irritated and i wanted to be alone for reasons), somehow everyone goes their separate ways. Or is that just a coincidence? I guess I'll find out tomorrow.
After I printed out my work and checke the reference room, I went around to the back hoping to just sit down and write or something, but I actually ended up finding Fariha there. We talked for the rest of the period after I did the written part of my English homework.
Is getting bored of my friends something I do? For some reason in my case, a friendship always starts out fun and awesome, but then after a while it just gets irritated. I'm either really pissed off about something or I'm just taking my friends for granted, but I have to admit, few friendships of mine stay as perfect as when they start. Especially in middle school, I remember how that all went. And it looks like it's happening again, though not to the same extent as back then.
Actually, now that I think about it, high school is in many ways better than middle school. It's far more priveleged and a lot easier to make friends. There's so many people too! In fact, the people may very well be the only thing I miss about middle school. Aside from my old friends, teachers, and acquaintances, high school is by far above nad beyond middle school.
So...going back to what happened today. Next was Latin. I admit, it wasn't utterly boring, but it wasn't too much fun. I just did the work and talked to Christine and Esther most of the time.
After that was good old Biology. I feel so special in Biology! ^^ We're doing the unit on DNA. And I already know all this stuff. xD Heh heh. Imagine if I hadn't read this chapter for the SATIIs on my own, I'd be staring at this stuff like "What the hell...0_o". But gladly, I know all that I need to about DNA. ^^
Gym was alright. I met Sharmela in the halls on the way and we talked for a while. It's been quite a while since I've really talked to Sharmela. We didn't have to change or do much today because roof repairs are going on in the Girls Locker Rooms, so we just had free time to talk. I talked to Anna and Fariha most of the time. And Judy and Michelle for a bit too. Oh yeah. I forgot to mention. I started using that bag that Maria got me today. It's a little awkwards carrying a sidebag now, not that I don't like it or anything. But it's quite different from my old bag. Most people didn't comment on it thankfully, except probably Fariha. I seem to hate it when people comment on anything I wear, do, or say. That's just one of those things I hate. When people react to changes or make a big deal out of little things.
Global was okay. Me and Salma passed notes for a bit. And we learned about Korea's movement to nationalism. Somehow, I was able to concentrate quite well today. So well to the point where I wouldn't mind having a test on the information right after.
English was also okay. We finally had our guest speaker to talk about drugs and alcohol. She was dressed quite nicely in a blue top and black pants with some golden jewlry. Her name was Nwoqa I think. She just talked to us about herself and had us talk to her about us and people we know with issues. Not necessarily about drugs. About anything really. I didn't want to share anything though. I'm not that open about certain problems.
I went to my locker before English so I already had my stuff. I just went off to the bus stop. And I met Teresa there. So we talked about anime and our homes anf families and random things the whole ride. I really like talking to Teresa. We seem to have that mutual understanding that I think friends should have. That same understanding that I often lose with my friends. Yes. That's the one.
Another thing I was thinking about was peer pressure. It was mentioned today in English. I know that I normally wouldn't consider myself to be affected by peer pressure, but with some consideration, I think I actually am. Actually, it came up in one of my random conversations with Emran. He said that I was influenced by peer pressure and I said I wasn't. That didn't really go anywhere since I just left after he showed me one of his plays in Madden. Of course, when I think about it, aren't I affected by peer pressure? I don't really say anything to people, but I'm definitely very self conscious of what others think of me. That's the problem with being shy. And considering how I've changed in attire and perhaps in a sense habits since I started high school, I suppose I am affected by peer pressure. In some ways, I am satisfied with how I've changed. But in other ways, I sometimes wish that I would just change back. Half and half situation I guess. But I guess I'll see how I turn out exactly in three more years.
That ought to be the end of my trail of straying thoughts for today. I'm not sure exactly what I'm going to do right now, but I don't have much else to say here.
-sushi
