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Not gonna love for a long time, I tell ya
I can't love with so many pieces broken
I'll fake my smile, but I almost hope he knows
How such pain I'm in 'cause I don't think
I deserve it
Not this pain anyway
Now I know he'd been thinking about getting rid
Of me
For a while, which means
That my very first kiss was a waste
He didn't want to
What a fool I am
I hate myself
I didn't even pay attention to the signs
I hate myself
It's hard to not look at him
Sometimes it feels like he's ignoring me
Why am I a fool,
A hopeless romantic,
A stupid, stupid girl?
I thought that maybe things were okay but they weren't
I pushed him anyway
Life sucks
Why does it still have to hurt
Why? OH WHY?
I scream into my pillow
Wishing for the pain to go
But here in my heart it stays...
And now I'm sorta kinda starting to like another guy
But these emotions must be deleted
I can't start liking someone else
I don't want to hurt him, but I really don't trust him
I don't trust any man anymore.
I'm afraid to open my heart up again
One: it's still in pieces
And two: I know it'll just get broke again
No, no, no, no, no, no,
Relationships suck.
I can't....
I can't....
I don't want to heart anymore
Not anymore no no
Please let me fool the world into thinking I'm alright
'cause I'm not
And no one should have to feel what I am
no one.....
AND I sure YOU wouldn't notice that I'm even gone
I leaving behind who I was
The love was pretty much one sided wasn't it?
You never really meant those three words did you?
I was a fool
I was a fool
You felt like part of me
Now I'm left only half of who I was
I guess I'm just now realizing that I AM ANGRY WITH YOU!!
Why'd you wait and make me think things were alright
Why not try to talk things out??? WHY WHY
And next time you break up with a girl, buddy!
Don't tell her you've been thinking about it since Christmas!!
That hurt so bad... it's the reason I'm angry...
You never really loved me did you?