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heart heart heart I got my taxes done but I still ahve a lot of things to get done. Now I ahve to look for a dance and music coach so I can start my demo. I never knew it was so expensive btu i am so used to doing things by myself I realize I ahve to amrket myself and jsut do what I got to do. I know since summer is comig I need to get new pictures now and start training to tighten my vocal chords. I am going to start going to NYC to explore and find the studio headquarters to find out much studio time is and to train with a friend since I ahte workin g out by myself. I jsut walk everywhere and eat small proportion but t's not good enough. I ahve to work harder to tight my stomache muscles to make it easer to sing without my voice giving out when I doa high note. I am so amped! I lvoe giaia and have made some amzing friends on here a lt of them have been telling me to calm down and I want to d that because being voerly emotional is bad but give me good songs to write which a lot of m fri=ends love. I am trying to send two songs out by saturday for everyone to read and give critiques on my toher site since I promised and I ahve been neglectful. I know being blunt is bad but I can't help it when you work in NYC and want respect you lay it out bluntly whether it sounds harsh or not. I can learn tact but I ahte when it seems like people want me to change. If it comes from good people I trust that and am workin on that but I ahte when people who are messed and insensitive to others tell me about myself. it's like f off what the hell do you know and confronting them is a joke because I don't always want to be the b***h. I just say my peace nd lay in the cut till I ignore them or just never attempt to really be cool with them. I feel inspired that I a realizing who i am as a person and hav emt some wonderful people on all my sites and in my life and they are so positive and some are fake but it helps me to deal with people period and when I get industr it much worst. I am starting to not stress as much because I am etermined to get another job and just make my goals happen. Now I am done and my drama is actually shaping up because I am fighting for it.