Anyway, neither here nor there... well, the two of us have been spending some more quality time over the past few days. She and I have become even closer surprisingly. I really don't know how to explain my feelings nowadays. I'm not nervous around her anymore, like I used to be. I think I still have some dibilitating phobia of presenting myself as anything more than some distant resident of the friend zone though. I feel cold and depressed right after being with her now though. Not some brush it off har-dee-har-har kind of depressed either.
To say I loved her, at least I think, would sound cheap. Like some top-shelf phrase said to kill time. I use the same word for pizza and T.V. shows for God's sake. No, what I feel transcends a simple literary term. Not to be shared with a coined tiresome Hallmark cliche. One used to cook up saucy phrases on the back of romance books. She makes me feel like existing isn't some grand scale waste of time. She is the one. I end that sentence there because I could just go on and on. Every line would be some repetition of the same point. She is all I've ever desired in the world. I now do not crave material goods. I merely need her companionship. I take comfort that she knows I'll always be there for her, and for now that is all I can really do.
So, for lack of a better word... I'll love her for all time.
~Kujo~
