I'm just racking them in this week ain't I? Just a lot in the old noggin, and while i think i've shared just about everything about past girlfriends I possibly can, I'll porbably still find a way to share it. This is to be the part of life that gets boring. I mean i'm stuck, I have to work with my dad until I get enough money for college, the day to day routine is so... routine. I never though i'd miss school but by god i miss school. At least it stired the s**t occaisionally, i would go and do the same thing everyday but there was always the chance that say, I would get a hug, or have a nice intellectual conversation or even see one of my friends i don't see much because of the school schedule. School never seemed so routine because i had something to look foreward to, graduation. Now even though i am so hopeful and cheerful, I know its just a whimicical hope that i'm chasing after right now. And with that i consider my life to have no goal and there for have fallen into a routine, with which there is no soon escape. That why i've been stuck in a rut thinking about past girlfriends, because there's nothing else to think about. I would worry about jokes for the next school day but I don't see any of my friends anymore and my dad seems to think i'm as funny as a rock. Soon I won't see any of my friends anymore. My family and I are moving to Shrieveport, LA on labor day. I'm not excited but i'm not that sad either. Its not like i'm leaveing much behind, sure some friends i'll have occaisional contact with but other than that it won't be long before I won't talk to them anymore. Soon it'll be only one friend that I have very miniscule contact with. I only call every saterday cause she's so busy with college. My hopes are riding on the fact that i can get a drivers liscense soon and a car. Then i'm going to visit everyone very often. It sucks being alone. I will definatly probably more than likly be on Gaia a lot more out of boredom and i'll only come to the journal and post a whiney cry cry post about how life temporarly sucks and has me excited at the same time. Another thing i shall think about why in the hell am i so afraid when i see that i have a new PM?
 hikaru23232 · Fri Aug 27, 2010 @ 04:16am · 0 Comments |
