I think I come back to Gaia when I have no one to talk to. It's a good place to lay my thoughts out. I had a bit of a meltdown Sunday, all day I was just on edge and freaking out the whole time. Not that she cared... At least it didn't feel like it. She didn't ask why, she just didn't understand why I guess. I shouldn't blame her, and I kinda do kinda don't. It's my fault, all of it, always. We aren't going to last forever, hell, I don't think we'll make it much longer. She'll grow tired of me and throw me out. Well, not throw me out, but you know what I mean. It's a terrible feeling, and I know I'm the only one feeling it, she thinks everything is fine, and it probably is. But I can't convince myself of that. I feel like I'm going crazy. I hate to be, I'm trying hard not to, I'm trying hard not to just, go insane. As unfeasable as it is I have to actually try to not text her creepy texts, and junk. And not get offended over small s**t. ********.
 hikaru23232 · Tue Sep 04, 2012 @ 09:31pm · 0 Comments |
