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So, I'm back again, not for long, just for a post. A rant I suppose, I've tried to play off being happy today but my mind always goes back to the story of tomorrow, and my fear of what it will be. The deep dark secret you hide, that haunts you for your days, that makes life seem to be a challenge. And I'm going to hear hers, this'll be the first deep dark secret, and it will explain some things away and as she put it, help me to understand. I'm kind of afraid to... in yet not, i want to know and attempt to help her through it, but i know it's going to be horrifying, will i be able to act right, to look strong for her? I shouldn't be the nervous one, she has every right to be, i understand my little contact with people has turned me into a nervous wreck, but I can get over that, i know I can. I want to change, even if just this minor thing, for her. I love her, I'm in love. And she said it back, she's just a whole slue of firsts, and I'm just so giddy. I have my sad days where i question her and it, "is this real life"?, but in know it is, this is happening to me. I guess I'm in shock right now, simply at how my life seems to be magically getting together. It's all thanks to her, I owe her so much and we've only been dating a month and a half..ish, maybe. It's something like that. All i can say with a definate certainty, she makes me so happy, sure i have my dark days, like i said, I'm in shock, and weary, previous relationships ended with little to no notice, while this shows no sign of ending any time soon, I'm still in a defensive mode, even after all these years. I'm in love, wow. Pretty freaking awesome.
 hikaru23232 · Tue Jun 26, 2012 @ 01:02am · 0 Comments |
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