Yeah i am just doing this for my own persenal reasons so it is understood if this isn't read either but well i just feel sad sometimes ya know like ur alone even if u have a gf/bf or husband/wife its just those points in life when u just feel sad for some and no reason at all say looking at something that u could have had but lost or something u want or can't get and then some pple get mad for no reason and hate like i am now i mean when i look at someone i lost my chance at or i don't stand a chance to get... i just am feeling sad and angry i cuz pple out in my mind for even the smallest of things and now i don't know what to thing i have like 30 crushes but i don't want to try some are my friends and if i try and once i fail i know i will but once i do then it would seem akward and i would have lost that chance that feeling would stay but cuz i made that stupid mistake i have made that choice and i can't change that (This hasn't really happened but i have pictured it o o some many times) and so that makes me timid hesitante that will not help me in the future this is the way i really feel sometimes liek when i'm with my friends i'll act stupid like i usually do but then just kinda only do it to entertain bt i suck at it if things could be saved and reset like a game i mean u could consider these porn dating simes are a guys's fantesy that they are ethir a perv or they get the chance to try again no more akward coinversation should they fail and stay frineds no more feeling srry for what they lost no they can just restart the game and that is kinda y i paly games a respawn point a reset game the ESC butten is there should i fail then hey just reset but that dosn't change the fact that u failed that u sorta lost in a sence that u now know that thats the way to get an anime girl a fake girl to like but in real life taht won't work and talking about that pple today like 13 year olds are already getting intemite and they think they are in love and soem are but some are just in it for the sex i say that sometimes but i don't mean it sex would be the last thing on my mind unless we were really in love man but even then i don't know i mean it sickens me some pple hjave had sex and are still 13 or 12 i act that way to some of my bigger boobed friends i have ruined my chance with this one girl i met i had a crush on her but she had big breasts and i would make coments about them but then i lost my chance and realized liek 6 weeks before school was over that i had ruined my chance that i had screwed up some men will say there bad with the ladies and just move on to find a hore but no thats not the way it works its just not it but some pple have foregotten that the impotance of love they just want sex and u got divorces and i bet that after every person gets a divorce is that that person they just seperated form was not there type no its not the type thats the problem its the damn way u talk pple can change outside and in i mean u don't realize what u got till u lose it they had forgotten the reason they had married that person in the first place it was for love some guys turn into perverts and cheat on the women they love and some women get bored and just go for a more exiting man but thats just not right well thats it thats all i have to say i hae spiled my guts to u for no reason i don't expect any comments but u can add soem if u want to i know this was lame and sucked and i have taken a good chunk from ur lif to read this but remember i am not an emo or a goth i am just a heavy thinker and things are starting to impact me more for some reason well tis all later
 hikaru23232 · Sun Jun 11, 2006 @ 05:11am · 0 Comments |
