Hey guys sorry its been so long altho i doubt anybody reads this thing anyways cept my girlfriend Hi by the way well anyways the starngest thign i have nothing to complain about its its weird but ever cince last Saterday and lookign thro soem pictures i just realized if you take a pic of me in more than 3/4ths of them i will force a smile if i'm smilign at all i mean its just i hate it sometimes all be all happy happy joy joy then i'll not be its liek everythign that makes me happy just disapears and theres nothin to be happy about and then my friends will be all whats wrong and i'll have to force a smile so they won't pick at it but they usually stop pickign at it when i say nothing and go back to mindlessly talking while i play montages in my head of happy times without music. I mean it annoys me in yet i'll just sit there and think remember. I probably seem emo right now well get over it i do that sometimes i mean its just that its liek i said something sucks every thing out of life that there is that i need to be happy and i just sit there remember the happy times as if all happy things went somewhere. I mean just today i don't know what and it might not even be the right feeling but it felt like somthing was missing today but i don't know what liek like i missed somethign of the day i mean heck everything seemed bigger as well i don't get ti i got everything i need to be happy a girlfriend that loves me a computer tons of friends that randomly hug me forgettign that if i huged them while they stand on a bench my face would be put in there breasts i mean i coudl ask for nothing more honestly well besides that i don't want to move but yeah i just dont' see what the empty feeling was it was was just *sigh* yeah well its just that i mean i should be happy right? and tommorrow i will be happy happy beat my head into a wall owen the same old owen the owenh that owen made himself into tha ti agreed to be the silly, stupid, short attension span, nto taken seriosly soemtimes, wimpy, lazy and thought to be the weakest of them all which i have grown proud to be called that all taht so y am i compaling i don't knwo mayby that i am probably smarter than i let on i coudl have failed the 8th ******** grade damnit becuz of my own stupidity. This is noones fault but my own i screwed myself over and i will fix it i guess besides who will fix the cheese without silly ole me ^^ it your read this don't take it seriosly its just me saying what soemtimes passes thro my head as a strang possitbility its no ones fault but my own Love you me GF and thats all i have my hissy fit is over and yes i will probably be happy happy joy joy tommorrow
 hikaru23232 · Fri Aug 25, 2006 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments |
