(Before I start i just want to let you know, the title is just a random title, I think it would be an awesome Album cover title in a line of Story Albums.) I've always wondered in some form or another, how old do you have to be, to realize that your not who you used to be? I've always imagined that when I hit 18 I would grow another two inches or so and become wiser and stronger and braver. I wondered if 18 was really the magic number that would make me what makes my mom or dad. Confident and able to do what they do with what seems like little fear. When would i get that and more. Well i'm 18 now and i don't see it. When i would imagine myself with wife and a couple children, I would be the model parent but I would be out playing with the children and the wife would be chatting across the fence with the neighbors saying "Thank god he never lost his boyish charm". WTF does that mean? It didn't seem like a bad thing when i was little but when your a child you typically don't worry about stuff like that. What am i afraid of most i have alist but because it involves some people most will be blanked out.
1. The future. It sends chills down my spine as i imagine what my future will be like and then remember the simple fact that my life is not a book. People can say no and out right ignore you all they want and never love you, or like you as a friend. In a book one thing said and the other person falls in love damned near instand, while in real life, you have to be careful with what you say people will call you creepy and never want to see you again.
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4. Dieing
5. Blank.
 hikaru23232 · Wed Jul 28, 2010 @ 02:11am · 0 Comments |
